The Power of Loving What Is

The beginning of this week I came down with some kind of cold/virus.

At first I thought it was allergies because it started right after I'd helped my son bag fall leaves.

It hit fast and got worse rather quickly.

I worried about the people I had been around and how it might impact them.

Isolated in my room, I didn't feel well enough to read or watch anything.

My visit with my sister who was in town from Colorado was cut short.

Missed my nephew's wedding.

Missed seeing and loving on my new grandniece, Elaine.

Missed lunch with my family.

Missed being able to be part of watching the kids put the final decorations on the Lego Christmas tree for Festival of Trees.

Asked for help to get my son to and from two Orchestra performances.

Cancelled all my clients appointments for this week and they were more than gracious.

Drove myself to get COVID tested, while fevering. Had a blanket, 2 heat packs and a seat heater, which had very little impact, while a friend talked with me on the phone to keep me company.

Listened from my room as I heard my daughter falling down the stairs with a large container of soup my friend had just made for me. Worried about her physical safety and felt disappointed about my soup and unable to supervise a proper clean up. (Her bottom, arms and pride were a little bruised, but no major injuries.)

Had a sweet client bring me homemade soup and vegan pumpkin pie.

My teacup poodle, Peggy Sue, has been my little companion and spent the entire week laying next to me.

My mom replaced the spilled soup with two other soups and made sure I was well fed and had everything I needed.

Today I opened my office fridge and saw my mom had stocked it with my favorite drink, kombucha.

My dear friend called me each day and talked with me so I didn't feel so alone and sent me videos of beautiful parts of music from her Veteran's day choir rehearsal, as well as pics from the tree decorating festivities.

My oldest daughter called to check up on me morning and night. 

My son cleaned the entire house.

My daughter came home on time each night and checked in with me.

When I felt weird when I was fevering and my brain seemed stuck in a weird loop during the night, I just leaned into it and trusted it would pass and rest would come.

Grateful for my nebulizer, diffuser with my homemade version of Breathe essential oil, and echinacea and whole food Vitamin C. (Holy basil, ashwagandha, manuka honey and more...)

In the not so distant past I would have resisted how I was feeling physically and emotionally. 

I would have felt fear and anxiety.

There would have been a lot of guilt about cancelling  clients and guilt over getting sick.

But not this time.

This time I was present and happy and grateful.

This week of being sick was exactly what it needed to be.

Body's get sick sometimes. Nothing has gone wrong. 

When I am not resisting, or in fear, guilt or anxiety, I can look around I can see and appreciate those around me and all the many ways I am blessed.

It's a much better way to live!

The tools I teach my clients, I use myself. I am living proof that they work. 

PS For those of you wondering, my COVID test came back negative.